"Welcome to my life." ;

Wow

2007-03-05T15:22:00.000+09:00

My blog havent been serving its purpose. Therefore, i'm closing it.
End

Come on, time.

2007-02-27T23:00:00.000+09:00

Boarders weekend please arrive sooner. My life is a mess now and i need a break.

Arghhhhhhh!

2007-02-18T00:21:00.000+09:00

Hey come on girl, love me back.
Please?

Embrace reality, and say good riddance to fantasy.

2007-02-09T17:47:00.000+09:00

Hello All.
I have a new Girlfriend.

She is,
Difficult,
Complicated,
Tempremental,
Unpredictable,
Inscrutable,
Just like any other.

Her name is reality
and
I am still trying to understand her.

Life.. what is it?

2007-02-03T19:09:00.000+09:00

"I wish I were in Singapore so I can run away from home."

2007-01-28T02:30:00.000+09:00

Pathetic. Cant even start a conversation? Why? Are you useless? Do you have social phobia? Why are you just sitting there like a dork? Call yourself a guy and Ill laugh.My reply: Shy.

My thoughts:
What? Are you trying to embarrass me? You made it seemed like I beg you to set the whole thing up. You probably dont know this but, I cant talk. Not when youre around. And yes, I do talk to girls. I have another life you dont know about. Why? You think Im gay? Being in an all boy school for my entire life doesnt render me incapable of speaking to a girl. Seriously. Moreover, those decisions were made by you. If you want to place me in a school of that sort, then dont expect me to perform otherwise. Still, I have had girlfriends. So I am no dork, have no social phobia and yes I call myself a guy. I just refuse to act in front of you. But its okay, you dont need to know all these. You can continue to believe that I am that fabrication I put onto myself whenever you’re around.

Back to school tomorrow. Won't come on often anymore. Try not to miss me too much. Just miss me a little will do. Heh Heh XD

You're cruel.

2007-01-25T01:36:00.000+09:00

As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me
As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts
As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Ahhh....

Why live when you can die?

2007-01-21T15:27:00.000+09:00

Ahh. Haven't blogged for a long time. I must have lost most of my regular visitors.

Sigh. Life still sucks.

I decided to make a list of people who would actually genuinely care if I die, say, by killing myself.
So I took out a piece of paper, took out my favourite parker pen and i started thinking which of my friends or family members would even bother or be truly saddened by my death.
It was then i realised, i couldn't write anyone's name down. I just couldn't.

Yes, perhaps they'll be appalled by the abrupt end of my life.
Yes, perhaps they'll be unable to accept the fact that I have departed.
Yes, perhaps at that moment they'll be incapable of comprehending the reason.

Conceivably, they will grieve over me when I am six feet under but not because they were sincerely concerned about me but because of the reasons I have just listed above.

So, after my death, time passes.
As time passes, memory fades.
Very soon after, what remains of me in their rememberance would be, "The boy who killed himself, he was dumb" and nothing more.

Without me, the earth doesn't stop spinning.
Without me, the sun doesn't stop shining.
Without me, the flowers wouldn't stop blooming.
Without me, life goes on.

With me gone, its just one less human which would soon be replaced by a newborn.
I dont believe in heaven or hell.
So death to me, is vanishing.
Disappeared and forgotten, nothing of you remains.
Thats life and thats the insignificance of it.
An insignificance comparable to an ant, a virus? A germ? Or probably, nothing?
Life is nothing that is.

2006-11-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

Life sucks.
Perth is inhabitable. For people like me that is.
What do I mean by people like me?
I meant, people who are born, nurtured, educated and raised in a metropolis.

U know, for example, Singapore.

Singapore seems have faded into sweet foggy pictures of bliss. That reminiscence seems so saccharine yet unreal, so distance.
Its a weird feeling u know.

2006-10-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

My re-adaptive skill disappointed me once again. Three days of school and I am already entirely worn out. What about the rest of the term?
I can't even focus in lessons and am always exhausted. Still very much in the holiday mood.
I kept wondering how the hell am I supposed to cope. Exams are coming!
Accounting class is still as boring ever. Not just boring. Its unbearably, unbelievably and agonizingly uninteresting.

Almost mind numbing as we battle the hypnotizing reiterations my account teacher so skillfully radiates. I dread accounting, I destest school and I abominate the boarding house.

But, I dont think i am quite in a position to complain about stress and exams when you guys are actually having O levels. Still, thanks for listening to my rantings. I cant help it. I mean thats what blogs are for right? Rantings.

Thats about it. I really have nothing much to say. Everything's the same and if you want to know how i am doing, i can tell u i'll pull through. =P
Just watch yourself and O levels first. If u are taking it that is.

2006-10-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!
How can two weeks of holiday just flew past so fast? So swiftly. It ended so abruptly, so suddenly. I am not at all prepared for another term at school. I need an extension!
But seriously, I didnt accomplish ANYTHING at all during this two short weeks except maybe a few dotA matches and thats it? I am starting to feel crappy that i didnt make full use of what was given. Two weeks. Gone. Just like that. I didnt even finish this freaking book i started on the first day of the holiday! Gosh!
Back to that ShitholE boarding house.

And yes, my tagboard is screwed because tag-board is offically flopped. No idea what happened. Pisses me off, now i have to get another tagboard so u people can TELL me how much i am missed. (=
And yes, that'll probably be our only way of communication IF the web-messenger i am using happens to get blocked. That sucks but its better then nothing right?

TARCIA! I am sorry to say but this 2 weeks havent gave me enough time to reply ur email! U should understand that right cause u take longer then a month to reply mine. So yea i'll reply urs b4 ur O levels ends. (=

SEE YOU GUYS! GOOD LUCK FOR BLOODY O LEVELS. One more month!

2006-10-08T14:34:00.000+08:00

Eh! Havent had the time to update.
Anyway, went up to around 20 floors high using the cherrie picker last Wednesday to do something photo shooting for my Dad's aparment. Pretty freaky. Lol. Somewhat like the ferrywheel except that it doesnt go round and round and u feel much much more.. er vulnerable. I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Haha. Shiok right? To be honest I was damnnn scared on top. Wtf. The cage was shaking like hell when we were at the highest height cause of the strong wind! O_o

2006-10-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

I am so moved.
My blog is still frequently visited despite of the crammed and overloaded study timetable of you guys. O level is drawing near huh. People have stopped saying 'hi' to me whenever i log in. Everyone is busy studying their ass off.

Busy studying their ass off when i am here, enjoying my holiday.
Thats right, I am currently having a school holiday in Perth.
So please bear with me if i suddenly appear and annoy the hell out of you. =P
You all know Perth is a boring place.
You all know thats where i am having my holidays.
Holidays and boring place dont mix.
If they do, the result is devastating.
That is why i am devastated.
I have long anticipated the devastation.
I have an astonnishingly prescient view of holidays associated with the word 'bore', 'boring' or 'boredom'.
I have expriences too.
To make the matter worse, my dad chose to return and spent the holiday with us.
Perhaps I shouldnt publicly announce that my dad is an asshole but yea, thats how bad it is.
Those who have heard my rantings and complains would understand.

I havent had that ecstatic feeling you get of returning to Singapore for a long time.
It sucks really.
Being stuck here.

My only consolance is that I would be able to skip 0 levels.

I am 16 right?
I am still forced to go to a church by my dad. Why?
I dont know.
Is it a sin to say I'm not a Christian in a Christian church?
No offense but i have already long stopped believing in superior beings, such as God.

I am not sure what i am talking about anyway.
So if you guys are wondering the same thing, its alright.

It just random pieces of the more prominent thoughts that poured out when i am creating this post.

But really, be patient and WAIT FOR THE POSTS.
Laziness always gets the better of me. Can't help it, can i?

Besides, I am always online. Ask me about my life rather then wait for it.
Also, i'd rather speak then type. So freaking call me! Stop making me call u guys. Its expensive.

2006-09-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

How would you like a life with
everything planned out for you.

A life filled with rules even after school.

Take a glimpse into my routine life.

School

Monday to Wednesday
8:40am - Lesson starts.
10:40am - Recess.
11:00am - Tutor on Mon&Tues, Chapel on Wed.
11:20am - Tutor ends, second period starts.
1:00pm - Lunchtime.
1:50pm - Lunch ends, fourth period starts.
3:30pm - School ends.

Thursday
8:40am - Lesson starts.
10:40am - Recess.
11:00am - Lesson starts.
12:40pm - Lesson ends, assembly starts.
1:20pm - Assembly ends, lunch starts.
1:50pm - Lunch ends, fourth period starts.
3:30pm - School ends.

Friday
8:40am - Lesson starts.
10:40am - Tutor.
10:50am - Tutor ends, recess starts.
11:10am - Recess ends, third period starts.
12:50pm - School ends, lunch starts.
1:30pm - Lunch ends, activities starts.
3:30pm - Activities ends.

For Thursday and Tuesday only
3:45pm - Sports training starts.
5:30pm - Sports training ends.

Boarding house

Monday to Friday
7:00am - Wake up bell.
7:15am - Up and going. Breakfast.
8:00am - Room Check.
8:30am - Exit the boarding house.
6:00pm - Dinner Starts.
7:00pm - Prep starts. (No prep on Fri & Sat)
8:00pm - Prep break.
8:15pm - Prep break ends.
9:00pm - Prep ends.
10:00 - Bedtime.
10:30 - Lights out.

Saturday
7:30pm - Wake up call.
7:45pm - Breakfast.
12:15 - Lunch .
8:00pm - Sports competition.
6:00pm - Dinner.
10:30pm - Bedtime.
11:00pm - Lights out.

Sunday
No wake up call on Sunday
6:00pm - Dinner.
7:00pm - Clean up.
7:30pm - Prep starts.
8:30pm - Prep ends.
10:00pm - Bedtime.
10:30pm - Lights out.

Different years have different times though.

Prep is the study period. We have to stay in our room in the first prep and can go to another person's during second prep. Oh and of course, its a rule that u study during prep but normally i'll just read a book or even the computer when the MOD is slack.

Clean up on sundays are for you to empty your bins in your room.

Room check is when MOD comes around and check your room to see if you've made your bed etc etc.

Part of my room in term one.

I am the notorious rubbish king (i have more pictures of my bin. =P)

2006-09-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hi. Nothing much to post. Life is still as boring as ever. Theres not much happening as the loud blasting of speakers, the crazy screams of horror, the loud bangs of Australian footballs have already became part of my life. I sometimes wonder how can it still be so boring when I am so occupied and busy.

2006-08-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

Since its either you people possess low comprehension and visualising level
or I that am unskilled at describing things with words, I have inserted a photograph of 1 of the 11 dorms in my boarding house to give you ppl a vague idea of how pathetic our rooms are. Its one of the four big dorms which is located at the top level of my 2 storey boring house.
Will update more another time. People are screaming around my room. Its crazy really. I better leave before they see me blogging. They'd think i am spastic.

2006-08-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

YAY. I CAN POST AT SCHOOL!
Apparently school's too stupid to block this site. Muahahhaas.
Heres a photo taken at march. Its LAN time!

2006-08-28T18:04:00.000+08:00

Back to the boarding house today.
It sucks really.
The boarding house is a place where you can get as close to hell without getting all burnt up.
Back to eating rubbish food, back to the horrible showering system, back to live with the horrendous crazy animals.
Still not sure if blogger.com is blocked in my school.
Will blog frequently as a part of my attempt to stay alive from intense boredom at the boarding house if possible that is.
U know what, it kind of rhymes. "Boarding house, the boring house."

Well, lets hope I survive the next 5 weeks of torture.
Chow!

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE HAVING PRELIMS! ALL DA BEST (=

2006-08-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

*Ahem*
Created a new blog since the previous one is as well as dead.
Too many asked me to resume blogging. Uhh, looks like there are people thats still interested in my life huh?
Geez. Being trapped in Perth aint easy. Seriously.
I am currently enjoying the boarders weekend. For the benefit of those who have no idea of what that is, the boarders weekend is a long weekend which we get the friday before that weekend and the monday after the weekend off. So, 4 days of holidays.
I began suspecting if this whole holiday system has been carefully planned by the government so that it clashes with all the public holiday.
For gods sake, I haven't came across a public holiday in Australia that doesnt clash with the school holiday. Labour day clashes with boarders weekend, national day clashes with the year end holiday. Everything! How did they manage to do this!? I am still working on that part.

But i cant deny the fact that studying here is much much more enjoyable then the "EXTREME HIGH PRESSURE STUDYING SYSTEM" in Singapore. HAHA.